Question: From what I’ve seen on your MySpace you want to become a perfect Rubberdoll. When did you start doing this and why?

Yes, indeed! Becoming a perfect and well-trained Rubberdoll is my biggest target since I am active in the fetish scene. In 1995 I saw a documentary on Natalia Mühlhausen and her husband Jo Hammar. They were doing a photo shooting and she was dressed completely in black and shiny latex and the sun. This made her curves shining and glittering. I felt really sad not having these curves and I wanted to live my fetish like she did it. So I decided to work on it and to become a rubberdoll. I was only 16 years old.

In the age of 18 I went to the one and only fetish shop in Düsseldorf called «Fetish Cats» and it was next to the railway station and the legendary bordello «Bahndamm». Bahndamm is known because it is the one and only bordello in Germany where the girls sit at the windows presenting her bodies and all people that drive into the railway station with a train can see them. In order to find later the girl you liked, the windows had numbers. However, the shop was directly next this bordello and it has something forbidden for me to go into this part of the city. I bought my very first latex catsuit there.
In the age of 20 I applied at the mistress studio «Maison de Roissy» as rubberdoll. When I first came into the studio it was like entering heaven. A tall black haired girl dressed in latex, smoking a cigarette, sat in a huge red couch. Her name was Lady Samira and she gave me the name «Gummipüppchen». From this moment on I was her personal rubberdoll. She trained me and brought me deeper and deeper into the fetish and sm scene. After some months I was almost every day in the dungeon helping her before, while and after her sessions with the slaves but after a year full of enjoyment and fun she decided to leave the fetish scene and I did not saw her for many, many years.

I decided to make a pause too. I was something around 12 month not active in the scene and I needed time to come back to me as you can imagine. She was one of my first big loves. I will never forget the first session with her. I think I have the SMS somewhere in my archive. I felt really happy and had tears in my eyes and she wrote me «my enjoyment is the biggest fee for her and that tears are the hardest and most honest feelings people can show!»

After that I met Miss Cheyenne. She just started to work as a dominatrix and she had heared that I have my own outfits and also that I was a rubberdoll. At this point of time, I did not think that this will be a come-back but I was curious in her. I checked if she has had a website and I found one but it was terrible. I did for her in one night a complete new website and sent it to her. She loved it! This was the beginning of a nice fetish partnership. I was for years her rubberdoll and webmaster. We did together one of the most successful fetish websites in these days named «Miss Cheyenne’s World» but when the market was more and more embattled unfortunately our thoughts of the next steps to take for the websites were very different. Our differences in these cases were also the end of a nice friendship. In the following years I started my World-of-Rubber project that was next to Latexnews the one and only fetish news site in the World Wide Web. I bought new rubber and started to shape my body to today’s look and curves. I met Sandra from HW-Design and she invited me to Vienna for a shooting which I accepted with great pleasure. This was finally the biggest step in the whole evolution of my rubberdoll transformation. Since this moment we meet regularly and go to parties, have fun or do photo shootings. I think it has been 3-4 years. Today I am owned and trained by the gorgeous Mistress Dominique la Mer.


Q: What is your relation with HW-Designs?

We are actually very good friends and try to help each other where possible. Also all my latex wardrobe is from HW-Design in the meantime. When I visited HW in Vienna for the first time, I had the chance to try the COR13 corset. Before this I have had only experience with Demask corsets. The COR13 was something unbelievable. It was the first corset where I had the feeling that it really shaped my body and waist and not that I shape the corset. The texture was so thick, so heavy, so sexy and so wonderful to wear. From this moment on I fell in love with this corset and ordered my red/black COR13 known from many of my photos. In the following month I found out that HW is also doing nice and perfectly fitted catsuits and other latex outfits. With the time my complete wardrobe became HW. The old Demask items were broken and all my perverted wishes were fulfilled from Sandra, Harald and their well skilled team from the best Vienna fashion schools. Finally I must say, becoming a perfect rubberdoll is not only a thing of training. It is also a thing of perfect outfits and a good label behind this. Without HW-Design and their competence, Rubberdoll Emma wouldn’t be today what it finally is. HW-Design is the only latex label that is offering neck corsets that are how many fetishists think a neck corset has to be. The legendary pussy pants and the new pussy head harness are items a perfect rubberdoll needs to have!! So it’s not just the good friendship I have with HW-Design, they are also the builders and creators of Rubberdoll Emma Lee. They made all this possible!


Q: What was your most extreme fetish/BDSM experience?

My most extreme experience? Well, let me think about that. Due to the fact I am more fetishist then a bdsm fan I will tell you about one nice session I have had with a good friend of mine. She is not my mistress but she is a friend I like to play with in fetish and bdsm context. This was my first experience with e-stimulation as well. First she removed all pubic hair with wax then she put theelectrodes on my inner thighs. I got also a huge metal dildo inserted and some electrodes were glued on my arse cheeks. After this I dressed up in latex as usual. Complete rubberdoll outfit, you know from head to toe, like I always dress up with corset etc. On the back of the corset she fixed the small black box and connected the cables from the electrodes to the box. Till this moment it was easy but then she came with an inflatable straightjacket from Demask. I love inflatables from Demask and therefore I was happy to put it on. Some minutes later the jacket was inflated and I was totally helpless in her hands. She picked up the little remote control and pressed the «on» button. A short shock was going through my lower body. Nothing painful but very surprisingly.

Then she demonstrated me the power of the small black box. First I felt a nice feeling like I was being fucked. It was such a nice and real feeling, I couldn’t believe this. The best on this was, I couldn’t escape. I would be fucked by this wherever I am. These nice feelings did not last long because she then demonstrated to me, what will happen if I did not do what she required from me. People, who know the eplay, know how painful the «shock» button and the «3 sec. burst» can be. It was really painful. My knees became like pudding. After this demonstration I have had a lot of respect. This little remote control was really something evil for me in this situation but it could also open doors to heaven. Well for sure I felt more the evil part from this toy then the heaven. During this evening she forced me to lick her pussy and to bring her to an orgasm with my tongue. Every time I stopped for a second I was shocked so this was very motivating. Well then came the most horrible time ever. After that we go to bed. This evening we slept in a rubber bed with rubber sheetings and she covered me with usual latex sheeting. She lay next to me and said good night and then turned on the micro mode from the eplay. Every little movement or sounds from the latex sheeting were transformed for me into painful shocks. I started to scream but this finally was more painful. She laughed and said, «don’t move and cry and everything will be well». I did not moved from this moment on but she did. It was very painful because the micro was so sensitive and every little sound was more shocking then the shock button. I was very happy in the morning hours, when battery was low and then I was also able to sleep for a while. This was one of my most painful experiences I have had with e-stimulation.


Q: Is it difficult to combine your «normal» work with your rubber-life? Are you scared somebody would find out?

No, it isn’t! Why should it be? First of all I have to clear up with a delusion. There is nobody in this rubberworld who can live a 24/7 life as rubberdoll. I do wear my rubber and latex as long as I have fun wearing it. From the moment it becomes a pain in the ass to me, I change it because it is finally a thing of living out my fantasies and sex-life! Finally it can be that I have fun wearing my latex half a day in the dungeon while I am at my Rubberdoll training with Dominique la Mer. It can also be that I do not have fun after one hour during the Rubberdoll training but I will be forced to wearing it but at the end it doesn’t make fun being rubbered for more then 12 hours. Even this is a very long period. So since we found out that I do not wear rubber on a 24/ 7 basis it should be easy to understand that having a «normal» life next to my hard and perverted rubber-life is not very difficult. While other people are going to the gym for training I go to the dungeon to get my special training. While others are going on holidays and are lying in the sun on the beach, I visit friends and do rubber photo shoots. When other people are going to the cellar for their hobby like model making, I do websites or email with models around the world to make the Fetish Evolution as successful as it is today. If you would have asked me this question some years before I would have answered, «yes it is difficult». Today I say «no». I am not afraid somebody could find out that I am a perverted rubberdoll. I am not afraid since the moment my family found out about it. After this I felt really free! I felt like a caged bird for many years. Caged in the situation, having a double life from my families point-ofview. For me this was always a part of my life but for them it was not. They did not know this part of me. I remember that my father was the one with the most problems to accept the situation. My mum and my sister were really very tolerant and said if it makes me happy I should go ahead and do it. I think many people are afraid about this situation but I can recommend people to play with open cards in this case. You will feel free and will have a lot of more fun knowing that you do not need to hide from the people you love the most on this world.